Koi Khaas Nahi

Koi tumse pooche kaun hoon main,
Tum keh dena koi khaas nahi.

Ek saathi jo  kuch baatein keh jaata hai,
Yaadon me jiska ek dhundhla chehra reh jaata hai.
Yuh toh uske na hone ka kuch gam nahin,

Yuh rehta toh mere tassavur me hai,
Par in aankho ko uski talaash nahi.
Koi tumse pooche kaun hoon main,
Tum keh dena koi khaas nahin……

Select lines from a poem that I read before I left NZ . I look back and see that in the past 1 and a 1/2 year taken a solid wallop on my self esteem, have almost began to believe myself that I am a truly unlovable person . Sometimes you withdraw just to know who cares enough to break through the shell . I guess  I am just too good at the wall around me .Remember lines once heard  that mere samne teer waha se aya hai Jaha se maine sooraj ko nikalte dekha hai  ....kehne aur maane mein farak hota hai ....the years have taken the toll tasveere bhi dhundla jaati hai insanano ki kya bisaat . zindagi ke mausam se kuch bhi to hassil nahi kiya sivai chand fate kagaz ...chand dhundli tasweer ...chand feeke rang ....